Its been another 2 weeks since my last post. Life is speeding by right now and I just want to scream “STOP!” I remember being younger and watching the clock tick waiting for it to be 2:59 and for that bell to ring. For the weeks to pass by quickly so I could spend the weekend with my friends and the months to move even faster so summer vacation would be here already. All those years just wishing I could be a little older, wanting more freedom and now I just want to give it all back. Well not all of it exactly. I just want the opposite things. I want time to slow down. I want to enjoy the little things, savor the moments of every day. I want my kids to stay babies, even though they no longer are. I want my days to stop blurring together so I know what is going on and to feel on top of things instead of wishing there was more time in the day to do all I feel I need and want to do .
I am really enjoying being a coach. My girls are a lot of fun and it just feels right to be back in the game even if it is from a different perspective. I just wish that I was a little bit more prepared for the effect it was going to have on my everyday life. I went into this thinking that I was just going to be an assistant. be there to help out and lend my knowledge, less responsibility, more accountability. Things changed… I have a ton of responsibility now and I’m struggling with the time management side of it as well as the drama that comes with 12-15 year old girls. (Wow don’t even get me started on that). This is taking up maybe 15 hours of my week physically and quite a bit more mentally and emotionally, but either way, not a TON but I still feel like I am being pulled in a million directions. I don’t know how moms work full time. Not saying that I don’t know how they “manage” it. Saying, I don’t know how they cope with it. How they go all day with out seeing their kids. I still spend all day with Lani, but I miss Trey so much! I feel like he is really going from a toddler to a kid right before my eyes and I just want to put it all in slow motion so I can enjoy the transformation. Its just the littlest things that are amazing to me. Last week he came home talking about the changes in seasons and how it wasn’t August anymore it was September and singing a song about the days of the week. As much as I am struggling with all these changes, I am so proud of him and his love for school and learning. I pray his passion stays around for a long, long time.
In the mean time, I’m just taking a few moments to catch my breath and get centered before the hectic routine starts up again in an hour or so.
Some highlights of the last 2 weeks, the birth of my new niece Jaelyn Reese, I was so blessed to witness her debut into the world and love her like my own. Her mom is one of the most important people in my life and I couldn’t be more proud of her. Also, we took a trip to Orlando this past weekend and Trey was super brave and went on a bunch of water slides by himself. Just more confirmation that he’s growing up which is a good things. I look forward to the times when we can go on roller coasters together but for now I’ll keep him as he is.
